Brand New Me!

This is it!
I believe now i'm finding myself... the spirit of freedom always has been inside, but  kind of hidden in somewhere where i couldn't find before!

I'm talking about a new person whom is showing up from my deep inside! 
I finally could figure out that i was living a masquerade life and it seems to be so true that even I was used to believe that it was seriously.

So many things happened in this meantime... I had the opportunity to grow up in my professional life, I met different people who i had the chance to learn with, enlarge my way to see things at all... and it also enlarged my dreams and my wish to do different and new things!

The sky is my limit now!

In the very first time i wrote in this blog i was 27 years old.. and tomorrow i'll be 30!! :O  
In accordance to my auto-analysis i noticed that a new Cristiane is just borning  with this new phase. 

And once more,  Alicia is singing my life:

It's been a while, I'm not who I was before

You look surprised, your words don't burn me anymore

Been meaning to tell you, but I guess it's clear to see

Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me

Can't be bad

I found a brand new kind of free

Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame

Had to grab my heart back

God knows something had to change

I thought that you'd be happy

I found the one thing I need, why you mad

It's just the brand new kind of me

Oh, it took a long long time to get here

It took a brave, brave girl to try

It took one too many excuses, one too many lies

Don't be surprised, don't be surprised

If I talk a little louder

If I speak up when you're wrong

If I walk a little taller

I'd be known to you too long

If you noticed that I'm different

Don't take it personally

Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me

It ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Hey, if you were a friend, you'd want to get to know me again

If you were worth a while

You'd be happy to see me smile

I'm not expecting sorry

I'm too busy finding myself

I got this

I found me, I found me, yeah

I don't need your opinion

I'm not waiting for your ok

I'll never be perfect, but at least now I'm brave

Now, my heart is open

And I can finally breathe

Don't be mad

It's just the brand new kind of free

That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me

Don't be mad

It's a brand new time for me

This is it!

See ya!

Times later...

Well... I enjoyed my travel and i guess that was most complicated travel i had.. :(
There happened some things which leaded me to a dilem in my relationship.

I went through hard situations in my life wich i could name it as crisis.
From march till now my emotional life was a craziness.
But I preffer not to share this history here.

The all history ends fine, and it's all normally now.

I have the chance to know a very special person, but unfortunatelly this person couldn't be part of my life for long time... I hope this person find a truth love and be happy for ever, because i never ever met a most special person in my entire life.

That's my resumé about the travel

Too late?

Three months later and i'm here...
Almost carnival holiday and next week is my vacation! I'll travel to my momy's house and i'm too  anxious for that...
 I'll post some pictures from my travell when i get back
For now that's all folks!

Christmas

That's a nice time, time to forgiveness, love...

But why it never happens? or if really happens, it is olly during the christmas time?
I've noticed about the ONE.org campaining all over the world, and they delivery a very good job.

"ONE is a grassroots campaign of more than 2.5 million people committed to the fight against extreme poverty and preventable diseases."

Please join us in one voice and become yourself a member!

Holidays!

Oh man, how i love my country ;)
Brazil is wonderful! mainly because of a large amount of holidays in the year ;)

This month we enjoyed two of them, on Nov 02nd and Nov 15th...
What pity, it was rainy cats and dogs on both dates :( But ok... I took advantage of this and I slept, slept and slept! ;) I also enjoyed a barbecue in my boyfriend's house, i went to the shopping mall, We visited my boyfriend's uncle in a other city. We enjoyed a lot.

Well, i'm anxious waiting for the next one!

Back, and in a bad moon...

 

This is my unburden's place!

Yesterday i've experienced the most terrible discussion together my boyfriend.
As i usualy say, he is not up to surrender himself by me, to give up any commitment or adventure by me
And i want more, i think i deserve more! But he doesn't see it!
Sometimes i think i cant goin on with this relationship, just because if we can't understand us now, what can i say about the future?
Why is so difficult and complicated! i wouldn't like to live with someone who doesn't care on you as much as you wish!
What dilem! i love him, and i feel he feels the same for me, but why the things have to be so complicated!
I'm sure he is the man i've choosen to be my husband and the last one! there's no doubt, but i need find a way to set things clear and easy for both! the way we are now we can't live in peace...

I'll be here... maybe is time to reflect and give him time to do the same. I won't call him for today (if i manage it, why am i so impulsive in this moments!?)
#sad

Bye for now.

P!nk...

I was watching some youtube videos and i've found some of Pink...Gosh! how meaning lyrics she has in her songs!

"Family Portrait" is amazing :O!!
To say more, i've loved the "Fucking Perfect"... And i need to mention the  "Dear Mr. President"  too good!!! without mention the melody...fantastic!

A good approach for the new generation.

I think that all super stars could do that. They could use their influency to input a little sense in the brain of the younger.

Pink is a little extravagant, is truth, this may also influency the younger, but  nowadays they are too smart for only realize her appearence and don't manage to understand the message she is sending for them thru her lyrics...

Pink i leave here my congratulation by your amazing job!

And for you who is reading me, please don't forget to access the mentioned videos clips below:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGNdkue6yC8 ( Dear Mr. President)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4Rax2PXiWA  ( Fucking Perfect)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSjIz8oQuko  ( Family Portrait)

Its worth seeing!

Bye...